A sad day,

Last night, e talked about what we want in life and it seams that we don't want the same things. It saddens me to hear it, but at least i know how you really feel. Something that i have been thinking about for a long time, wondering about how do you feel about the relationship and how do you feel about me. You want me to change you want me to be a better person, i am trying to be a better person but can you guaranty that you will still love me after i change? Will you still love me when i do all that you ask? It goes to show that woman always want a man to change but men never want a woman to change.... this proves the saying to its very core..... i will change for you my love even if it means that i have to change the very person that i am now to be some one that you want to be with, but what then? Will you get bored of me when i change? I feel depress, i feel rejected, like this morning when i lean in to kiss you and you give that look of disgust. Makes me feel so unwanted with no real good reason at all.... i have kissed you so many time the same way and you have never given that look before....why now? Is it because of what we talked about last night? I do want to be with you my love, i really do.... but i need answers... as you have found out i am a bit slow and blur in many ways..... but i love you no less than the first day i met you..... i do want to be with you my love, do you want the same? You say you do but do you really want to live with a person that is dyslexics? And have a problem understanding how you feel at times and how do things work. I love you my love i show it to you but yet you still take me for granted i just want to feel loved and appreciated by the one i love and by you, i would walk the earth alone for ever if i do not have you. I want you to be happy, even if it means that its not me that makes you happy.... it saddens me to say that but i love you enough to let you be happy even if its not with me.... I Love you my Strong sun shine, my pillar of strenght, my beautiful butterfly, my comic relief, my everything.