Another day...... so sad that I don’t get to spend my Holiday with my baby, because she's working, in all places Singapore..... I should feel happy for her, but I don’t really, I guess I’m selfish that way and sad that she went there and left me desperate for her love, I don't want to come off as so needy, but baby I miss you so much. And I love you so much. MUAKS!!!!!! I don’t ever want to loose you baby..... I don’t think I can handle the loneliness of this ever growing world with out you, your my strength, the glue that hold my world together, and with out you I think it might crumble to the dark bitter nothing ness. Sigh, I’m feeling depress baby with out you, I think I am just to change... is that how you spell it? T must be stronger, must learn to be, if not how am I spouse to take care of my family in the future. So many problems in my head, I hope I can put my past behind me. And hope it wont come back to haunt me.