Simple things

How do the most simple things go wrong, its funny how things work out you know, i mena like when my mum past away and then i get the feeling that i am going to be alone and with out guidence, but i guess things could be worse. I just don't know i feel sometimes that i am just alone in this world and every one has no time to stop and talk to me i am an insecure guy at the sametime insensetive to other peoples needs. I guess i am looking for someone to just understand me, and try not to judge me, but i just feel so alone even when there are so many people around me, its the feeling of insecurity that makes me feel sick. Sick to the point that i just feel like Going on a homocidel rampage, Killing every one i see.... hurting everyone that i know and when its all over i will just kill my self, i had a dream