Perplexity

Confused I am about allot of things in my life on wether I should do what I like and forget about my responsibility and enjoy my youth. Or should i maintain strong and stick with doing all the house work and choirs, with out complaining. How did my mother do it all on her own, i feel bad now for giving her such a hard time all those years i got in to trouble and needed her to Bail me out. Oh god please forgive me for my sins against my mother, how could my father do that to her, but some how i actually understand why he did it. Its in our nature as men to want something else even if we had something great, its all about chasing the dream. The dream girl on TV that we all want to just fuck. Are we still just animals? Or are we just plain evil?