SIGH

Just a thought, i guess its should be easier to just forget about that bastered Dess, sending him a message will even piss him off, he and Avril deserve each other, fucking bastered is just like her man, the way he thinks is like just so out of this world. He thinks treating me like some ass hole i'm going to go crawling back to him to be his friend he's mistaken. Fucking Ass, i have so much i want to say to him but i am trying something new, trying to keep my anger in and not let it control me, trying to control my feelings and not let it control me, i guess i always had that problem of me letting my feelings control me and not thinking before i act. I guess i have to think things throgh. did i spell that right?
Sigh i have to be strong and i have to be the man i am seppose to be, be a strong man if not, how am i going to take care of my own family, No one will take care of them for me and i will have to do it my self, but i know this my only safe place right now is with you my dear, my only safe zone. The only place i feel safe, i guess this makes me a woos but i am not strong enough to be alone. I have always needed some one to be there for me and help me stand. I am not ready to go out on my own and look after my self. I may say that i am ready, but deep down inside i am not ready. I need you baby, my love bug. The one And only person that i can trust not to hurt me and to help me when i am down, to chear me up when i need you around. My sweet love. I love you more than life it self, this love is something i have not felt before and i now that for a fact.