Knowing whats, what

I'm sorry for bursting out at you the other day, i guess its just because its been bottled up for so long that i haven't been able to or didn't have the chance to let it out to anyone and me being me thinking that no one will understand me. Because no one does, and it hurts even more when u don't understand me. I actually like talking about my feelings, but sometimes i feel like you ridicule me when i speak my mind and that makes me not want to care about letting things out, so i am even more afraid to let my feelings be heard. Thats why sometimes i wont tell you how i feel. I'm sorry that i do that to you baby and i know its not fair to you, i will try to better my self for our future together. I love you baby .