Deep Depression

I am in a spiral of deep depression and can hardly find any remedy for it. My Lost love has moved on with her life, and i feel alone in this world with no connections what so ever. I feel alone no matter what i do, and no matter what i try i cant seam to get out of this deep spiral i am in, nothing makes me happy, have i forgotten the feeling of happiness, GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!.

I don't want to feel this way anymore, i have given up drugs, yet i still feel depressed, i feel rejected from the world and i am cursed to walk this earth alone in pain for the rest of my days, i had my JOY. And she left me , for the crimes i have committed i am sorry. Oh god hear my prayers please give me a sign on how to fix my life, i want to be happy, i want to care about things in my life again. I have lost the will to care about anything. Any achievement i recently accomplish didn't even spark any excitement or a bit of happiness in me, am i dead in side?

What should i do, somebody save me please. i am in need of a savior. i need some one
to make things matter to me again. I cant sleep at night, i want to feel alive again like i once did when i fell in love. i want to feel love again. Oh GOD, SEND ME A SIGN!!!!!! I am at my wits end.

I told her i will love her forever, no more faith i have in love. It hurts to much for me to bare, the feeling of a lost love is more than i can bare. I have lost so much in my life. i feel so numb.

Happiness, the word is foreign to the tung now, like a whisper of a unicorn almost no sight of happiness in reach or even heard of, like a myth.

I Pray that my one true love will forgive me for my past short comings, and my one and only sister will forgive me for not being there for her. I am loosing hope in living this life.