Day by Day

Love, i feel the same way too and have been this way with you ever since i started working baby....i look forward to building our life together every step of the way baby...i love you. I want you to see that because all the choices you've made are not all bad...

Good morning baby

Hey baby, i just got in to the office, and i am missing you dearly..... wish we could work together and start our life together, with no worries at all.... there is so much i want to do with you. And to go places with you but the money problem and the commitment problem is there, i know i can be an ass at times and not understandint your feelings at times but i am still learnign to be a better man with you and i want to be there to provide for you in many way not only just in financial but alos emotionaly... baby i think your the best choice i have ever made in my life baby
. And i love you for letting me see that baby. Muaks my dearest baby.

nothing to drain

what do you mean by pleasing me baby??? in terms of? if in bed then its a diff story altogether....but if in relationship and in life, of course you do! you are confident at times my dear...but lately, i think your confidence is building or at least i hope it is....its not draining me at all dear...its all good...seriously, everything's great at the moment..there's nothing to worry about baby. i love you very much too.

Just to please

Hi baby, nothing to do right now. Just surfing the net and doing nothing, so bored and feel so very uncomfortable right now since i just walked back from your office baby.... so tired right now and so sleepy... YAWN!!.... hai.... didnt know what to do so i just log in to blog about nothing, baby do i ever please you? I was just wondering and i am not the type of Guy that is very confident, and i know it must be very drainning for you. But i just cant help it baby dont know why... well i love you baby just wanted you to know that.

Happy Monthversary

Happy 1year And 5months Baby, Its been a very long and rough road together, and i love you most of all for staying with me trough it all, never leaving my side, being there when i needed you and for putting up with all my bull shit. Your the one that keeps me grounded my love and most all your the one person i cant live with out. I cant imagine being with anyone else but you, or waking up to anyone else but you, trough thick and thin you've been there baby and i want to be there for you too. My Butterfly, Baby Taures. Love you so so much!!!! MUAKS!!! Can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you baby....

:: A Happy 1 Year and 5 Months ::

Happy month-versary baby!!~ Thank you for loving me so.....I love spending my time with you, I love taking you out for dinners, I love teasing you and tickling you, I love watching you sleep, I love going out with you on road trips, I love shopping with you, I love buying you things, I love all the days that I have spent with you. You mean so much to me. You are that soo very special one in my life. My angel, my star.

There was a time

I am nothing with out you my love, I would be a broken man if I did not have you, you’re the cement that holds me to the ground when ever I feel like I’m flying off, taken by the strong winds of despair, you’re the ever shinning light in the dark…. You’re my all my one tru love…

Thank you

Thank you baby for your kind words, its realy comforting to know that you will be there for me, but its hard to deal with my emotions when evern i don't know what they are, i guess i have never dealt with my emotions properly, i guess that there will always be a part of me that i will not understand and cant hope for any one else to understand.... But i am greatfull to know that your there for me and that i am not alone, but i worry about the future and about how am i going go through it with out the gidence of my parents, i know i have to be strong and be a man, and take challenges as they come. i know its all part of growing up.... there are so many mix feelings that i have in me that i just don't know how to deal with it.

You're only Human

its only natural to feel the way you do baby...you are after all only human...i don't blame you at all for acting the way you do. you should deal with your repressed and pent up feelings in your own time but you shouldn't be taking too long...it will explode in your face one day....seriously, you just need to slowly deal with it. its not that hard especially if you have someone with you...i'm always here for you baby. you don't have to worry about that. i'll be here for you whenever you need me. i love you. you are not a burden to me. only your emotional problems are. they are a burden to me and yourself baby.

WHY!!!!!!!! Whats wrong with me

Why do i keep feeling so sensetive to you, like everything that you say has a hidden agenda there and i fee like i am being attacked by you even when you are not attacking me, why, why do i have all these mix feelings...... i guess this is a question that i ahev to find out on my own, and no onw can help me understand my self but me.... i guess i cant expect you to understand me all the time i guess i am being selfish in wanting you to know how i am feeling all the time i guess its all these repress feelings i have in me that i havent dealt with and are comming back to haunt me and keep me from moving forward i am sorry if i have misstreated you my dearest, never was my intention to do so, i never wanted to hurt you, but there is just so many things going on in my head that i cant get a hold on, that keep popping up in my head and i feeol traped.... like a caged animal that wants to break free that want the taste of blood...... i dont kow why i fe this way i guess i have to just open up to you and tell you how i am feeling then i guess i have to be meture about all this and deal with it now and not latter..... i don't know what to think..... the death of my dad 3 years ago, left me feeling liek i am missing out on something which other kids had when they were younger now with the death of my mum i feel so alone like there is one that i can turn to when i need some motherly advice..... what can i do now... what to do......so may questions............... so many in y head i feel like its going to explode.

Words of the wise

Birth is a beginningand death a destinationAnd life is a journey:From childhood to maturityand youth to age;From innocence to awarenessand ignorance to knowing;From foolishness to desecrationand then perhaps to wisdom.From weakness to strength orfrom strength to weaknessand often back again;From health to sicknessand we pray to health again.From offense to forgivenessfrom loneliness to lovefrom joy to gratitudefrom pain to compassionfrom grief to understandingfrom fear to faith.From defeat to defeat to defeatuntil looking backwards or aheadWe see that victory lies notat some high point along the waybut in having made the journeystep by stepa sacred pilgrimage.Birth is a beginningand death a destinationAnd life is a journey;A sacred journey to life everlasting