Dreams

I had a dream of her last night, and in that dream i was feeling happy. But what does this mean....i do miss her a lot but also i miss the times we spend together, which also makes me angry because if you love some one you should stick with them when they are going through a hard time. Quiting drugs is a hard time... i wonder did she ever love me? i some times wish i died 3 years ago, its what HOUSE said "dying is easy living is hard"