Our Past

*Taken somewhere in June circa 2005 @ Shell Petrol Station in USJ6

The Art of Letting Go

Few have mastered it, some never but it is possible nonetheless.

I'm sorry for having make you doubt me. It was never in my intention.

I was just being playful. And what I said was, "Bye bye David baby". It was suppose to rhyme. And I remember asking you if it was okay with you but you didn't seem to mind or least that was what I thought. Plus, its not that I always say it with everyone. I have a couple of times to Cat and Mich but always in a playful mood. Just sometimes when the playful mood occurs. Its just supposed to be cute and quirky. I never meant anything deep by it.

I am here aren't I? How is possible for you to lose me? Have faith love.

Have faith and faith will take you through it..

Letting Things go

I need to learn to let things go, since the other day when i saw you talking to David on MSN, and you replied him "Good night baby David" it felt like you were cheating on me, calling someone else our pet names. Till today i still can't get over it. I feel like there is more then meets the eye, and i really don't feel comfortable with you anymore.... i don't know why, I know that you told me that it was just a way you say good bye to your friends but, i take that name to be something special to me. And only use that name for some one I love.... I am trying to let it go but its really hard, i guess i just need some time to deal with my demons. I love you dearest love, and don't want to loose you to some one else. I've already lost so much in my life, i don't want to loose you too.

Happy & Contented

Like the title of this post suggests, I am happy & contented.

Why?

Because of you.

Thank you for the weekend my dear. Your sweet giving and understanding nature still lingers. For the first time in a long time, you so willingly brought me out to shop. And actually told me to find something that I like and to pick something out and try it on. Do you wanna know how happy and at ease I felt that I heard those words?

Very happy, and completely at ease.

I love you for doing this for me. I know you are totally against it but you went with it anyways. Thank you for that.

Things that we bought when I was happy:

• long wallet (for you)
• cool white framed sunnies (the one i've been looking for!)
• "I'm Not a Plastic Bag" bag (though its a rip-off, I still love it)
• red and pale yellow tube (from pasar malam)

Talking about pasar malam, you were so sweet to stop by just to satisfy my whim and fancy.

Thank you for eagerness, patience and generosity.

It still lingers....

Take a Cue

I've set up a private blog for us. Yet another one for us to put down reminders (or cues, hence the name) in life. Do check it out.

Take a Cue

I Will Follow You Into the Dark

Love, thank you for all your sweet and kind words, I am grateful that you appreciate me for what I do and for who I am. There is nothing else I could ask for from you. You please me in every way possible. Happy 2 years and 3 months love. Its been a blessing to be able to spend this much time with you.

Whatever comes upon us on our journey in life, I will follow you into the dark as well as the light for I will be by your side for as long as you need me and for as long as I am able to.

I love You.

Happy Month - Versarry

Dear Love,

Its been a wonderful 2 Years and 3 Months, never believed i could find some one so wonderful as you baby, your the best thing i have in my life. Your the reason the sun shines in my life and the warm blanket that keeps me warm when I'm cold at night. You are the Sun and i am the world that revolves around you, my dearest love. You stayed with me through thick and thin, through good times as well as the bad times. No matter what happens i promise you this one thing " I will follow you into the dark " through you good times and bad times i will be there for you as you have for me. Good love, i will always love you. These are the days of our lives, and i understand your concept of living life, and not worrying about the future so much. I know that were young and you don't want to be kept down so early in your life since your in your prime. I will try to change for the both of us baby dearest. Love you. Have a good day baby. Mu mu mu...

Confidence

Love, Confidence is everything in Life. You should never have to worry about me leaving you because you have not enough money or because you're not good looking enough or because you can't whip up a storm for me etc.

Love, have faith and the confidence that I am here to stick by your side through thick and thin. Through life and death itself. I should be the least of your worries right now.

And you were so adorable when you tried to pick a fight with me last night. It shows me how afraid you were of losing me. And that makes me wanna stay even more.

I love loving you and I love being with you and I love YOU.

Never ever forget that.