ButterFly Kisses

Sweet love, i will be missing every touch of your gentle hands from Pj. Counting the minutes till your safely home with me.


Loving you always.

From Penang with Love

Sweet Love,

I will be loving you all the way from Penang with every fiber of my being...

xoxo,
Joy

Talking

I do read our blog, its not that i wanted to spend my birthday this way, you said that you will be more accommodating, signs of marriage are from both parties, and i have been asking you to save money with me for the longest time, so that we can have a secure future together, i know you love to shop. But not till you don't have money to pay the bills. I have been trying to get you to see things my way for such a long time and you always say "ok baby next month baby" " ok I'll start next month baby" One of the reasons why i am getting so angry all the time is because i can't speak my mind with you, you get angry when i tell you the truth, i love you the most, but baby you used to be lot more patience with me and you have been saying that you don't want this relationship any more and hearing you say that makes me uncertain about my future with you, you used not say that kind of things. But why now? Whats different now. You think i wold not read this post?
Well your wrong. I want you to be more open with me. I need to know what you are feeling and thinking, this is a two way street baby, if you want me to be hones with you i need the same from you as well. Baby i love you. Why do you want to hurt me ? Some times you just want to hurt me on purpose.

Happy Birthday, Rocket Man

This was not how I wanted us to spend your birthday. Apart? This is not planned.

Why? Why do you have to be such a HOT tempered Asshole? Why? Why do I put up with you? Because I love you but loving you has it limits.

And you wanted to marry me. You're not even ready! We are not even ready for the commitment marriage holds!

Why do you do this? You hurt me everytime. every.single.time.

You think I like fighting with you? Fine. I'm ashamed to say that I can be unreasonable at times, I can be a bitch but why do you further aggravate the situation sometimes?

You are not who I think you are anymore. You are bitter. You make me bitter too.

I really think maybe we should go our separate ways. Sometimes I feel like it doesn't work anymore. I don't feel like you give me signs of any hope sometimes.

Well, for what its worth, Happy Birthday. Not like you'll read this in time anyway..

Rocket Man (this is you)

She packed my bags last night pre-flight
Zero hour nine a.m.
And I'm gonna be high as a kite by then
I miss the earth so much I miss my wife
It's lonely out in space
On such a timeless flight

And I think it's gonna be a long long time
Till touch down brings me round again to find
I'm not the man they think I am at home
Oh no no no I'm a rocket man
Rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone

Mars ain't the kind of place to raise your kids
In fact it's cold as hell
And there's no one there to raise them if you did
And all this science I don't understand
It's just my job five days a week
A rocket man, a rocket man

And I think it's gonna be a long long time...

Baby Names

I like:

Aalynn
Aimee
Amy
Adrienne
Alyssa
Arielle
Aoko
Ashlee
Ashlyn
Jade
Jayme
Joelle
Jolynn
Juniper

Alexandre
Arthur
Axl
Jared
Joel
Jordan

Or, just because we can, we name our son and daughter Audi and Mercedes respectively :)

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry that I shouted at you, but it seam that every thing that i give you, you must have something to say about it and its almost never nice. If your not complaining your commenting about the way it was wrapped. Why cant you just appreciate the gift as it is and that not everything has to be a certain way? I know you have an opinion, and i love it that you do. But it hurts, and it makes me feel sad that i can't seam to impress you at all. Nothing is ever good enough, that's how i feel when you have an opinion about my gifts. Like for instance the engagement ring that i bought you, or the way i popped the question to you. Its so many random things that make me feel small or incompetent, i get angry that when i showed that i was a little unhappy that you had something to say about the flowers that i bought you , you had to give me the cold shoulder, i HATE it when you give me the cold shoulder, and i didn't even start to yell at you then until we got home and you still gave me the cold shoulder, that just really pisses me off. You told me that will try not to give me the cold shoulder, but it seams that every time i look a little disappointed, you will give me the cold shoulder. WHY, why must you do that. I HATE HATE it when you do that. It really gets me running, when you do that i wont be able to think straight when you do. I hate you when you do that, don't you know that? I love you, really i do but please don't ever give me the cold shoulder, i really hate it. HATE. Baby, why would you do that when you know that it will only enrage me further. I'm really sorry that i lost my temper the other day, i will try not to scream at you again, next time i will just ignore you and go off to be my my self, till i calm down.

I'm Furious

This is it. I feel like this could be the end. I can't believe you pushed me. What right have you to push me? What right have you to treat me the way you did?

You made me sooooooo angry and sad at the same time.

You didn't have to be so sensitive about it. All I did was comment on it. When the FUCK did I complain? That was not a complaint. I was merely commenting on the wrapping which you did not do by the way! Hello??? This is ME. I do this all the time! Why this? Why every time when you give me something??? Why do you have to take it so fucking personal?? It's harmless!!!

I can't believe it. I think you've crossed the line.

I've had it with your short tempers. I've had it with your inability to control yourself.

No more. No more.

Just Some Random Pictures

Us at the F1 Sepang Circuit for some race I can't seem to remember :)

That's you fooling around at the wedding dinner a couple of months ago



Happy 2 Years & 6 Months love
It has been blissfully wonderful...

Month-Versary

Happy 2 Years and 6 months baby doll. Its been a exciting and rocky experience together, learning and understanding each other in so many way that one can imagine. But never have i loved anyone as much as i love you. I love you to bits and can't stand to let you go. Together, i will follow you in to the dark. Forever and ever baby. Mu!

Our First Big Win

Last Saturday marks the very first time we won in gambling together!

Omg I tell you! We played Tai Sai in Starworld Casino and we were winning BIG :) A total of RM350 bucks was won! It could have been 400 if only we didn't lose the the last 2 rounds.

We make a good team I think. Especially when my dear, you predicted so many wins! OMG! I am sooooooooo amazed! I LOVE you! I LOvE you for making us WiN!

WooHOO!

Shall we go at it again today? *laughs*

Work

Sigh

I'm not happy again.

David has come back but I don't think that's good news for me. He's just the kind of person whom has strong opinions about everything. I feel like my creativity here is done. I've had enough of this. It was better when he wasn't around. Then I was able to do my own shit without anyone saying anything to oppose me. This is so upsetting. Its not that I don't like people telling what to do. It's just sometimes he can be soooo fucking stubborn. Your sister was right, its bad enough that he's smart. It's worse when he's smart and he knows he's smart. He refuses to listen to me sometimes. When I suggest something I know would work because I've witnessed it, he'll go on to say that it won't all because he's adamant that it won't.

I know that you've fucking tried it before but so have I and I know that it fucking works okay! You just don't know how to do it right!! Who the hell are you to tell me so! You DO NOT know everything!

Recently I did my spread of bags/luggage and I'm not too happy with the outcome. The colour of the products were totally wrong! Sigh. I'm sorry if I screwed up the lighting but I had no choice. I'd rather it bright and visible with a slighty wrong colour than it being dark and with the right colour. I feel like no one in the office helps me with my efforts to produce a great spread. If only TK would have shown me the page before. He was supposed to fix the colour. I told him too. But then again, I guess I can't blame him seeing that he had to rush everything. Sigh. I soooo could have prevented this but I didn't. I'm so upset baby. I feel like crying...

I feel limited. Bakry was supposed to help me with my spread but he ended up being busy with something else. I feel like this is not fair. I could have fixed this problem earlier but I have only been looking at the page in black and white. Sigh. This SUCKS!

I'm angry, upset, disappointed, lost. I feel like no one thinks that my spread is important. Not the SCBK or Bakry or even David! I feel like everyone at this point in time is somehow against me. If the pictures are not good, it reflects on me and eventually this company. Sigh.

I think it's time for me to go. Time for me to leave. Time for me to pack up and go.

The Sweetest Note

To My Dearest Sweet Love

I love you more than life itself, do not allow your stupid friends to get you down, I will try to finish work early today to bring you out for a shopping spree. I will do anything just to make you feel better my love. You're my one and only pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. I'll love you forever and always.

Love you Baby.

(Signed) alvin

*circa Aug 2007